bearblog is a gap year for my notes
eek, j woke up around 6 this morning shaking from a fever. once he got comfortable, i figured it was better to just get up than spend an hour trying to get back to sleep. it's early for me 🥱 and a long day, but hopefully this was the worst of it and he'll feel better soon.
i also somehow managed to change all the colors on my blog... or maybe i reapplied a theme? where's my purple! my custom theme wasn't working on my phone already, but i figured that had to do with, idk, how the site was cached on different devices? the css is still there, but it doesn't seem to apply when i publish it.
update: lol, my browser was in dark mode. i'd just toggled on the option in vivaldi to force dark mode on all pages and thought to check if that was causing it, but forgot i changed the browser color scheme to dark mode from auto. update: i would just like to note that dark mode struck again at 1:52 p.m today. my outlook theme settings were preventing me from using an html signature.
double-also, i found this guide through this roundup and set up a reply via email link at the bottom of my post template. how fun!
i'm writing more since signing up for bear than i have in... definitely months, but i think it's been years since i consistently just wrote anything other than journal entries, personal essays, and atomic notes. i want to dig more into this in a post, but i realized that a big part of my problem was not having an intermediate "form" between atomic notes and the more structured essays i was trying to write (but couldn't start).
my note-taking process is great at helping me link ideas that exist closely together (e.g ideas about identity > social context > social media), but not great at helping me make the leap across truly disparate topics (identity > ... > digital rights management). this likely could have been solved with other habits; i spend a lot of time writing new notes and very little time reviewing the ones i have. but something clicked about going from the ultra-meticulous environment of my ‧₊˚✧ note index ✧˚₊ to something almost opposite.
what i've posted isn't what i expected or planned for my field notes to be, but i've really just been letting myself have at it. i feel like this is where my ideas go to be loose -- to feel a little worthless, maybe, to meander and take up more space than perhaps is justified. they start as tightly constrained, independent thoughts and concepts; they come here to... unfurl feels right; and eventually, hopefully, they're reigned back in again into something a little more refined, more buttoned-up and ready to go out into the world.
bearblog is a gap year for my notes.
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